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| Work Work Work Work.....What else do i have time to do.....I miss all of you wesley people but i am kinda laying off the internet for a while... i will post every now and then.....
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| So the last few days have been kinda weird. I have been feeling and thinking a lot of different things. I have decided if i have not decided before.....that i hate growing up. It is to much responsibility. Working and paying bills take up 90% of my time now days and i just think it is ridiculous. I want to be a no good teenager again. I want to go back and live with my mom and dad....oh well wishes are just that wishes.....
Now that i have left Wesley i hate to say it but i have kinda put God on the back burner. i know he is so tired of all of the mistakes i make but he still takes me back each time. Lately i find it harder and harder to stay true to him. he loves me but i cannot continue to make the same mistakes over and over again....i have got to learn the lesson at some point and time. I need suggestions....what are some good passages to read during this time that i feel lonely and like i have hurt God more that i ever should have....what do you guys read?
Patrick | | |
| Oh my look how i have neglected xanga!! I am such a looser....I cannot believe that i choose this name....i guess being SGA president meant something to me at one point and time. So life lately.....man it is moving so fast i cannot keep up. i have gotten lost in all of the fear, hurt and pain. The effects of sin on this life have change who i am over the last few months. I lost my grandmother in September and life has not been the same since. Family traditions i have known all my life have now ended and it is time for new ones to be made....the hard part is i am not ready for the new ones. the old ones were just fine. Change....it finds us wether we are ready or not.
School and work are hard. I never dreamed i would be working on a masters degree in accounting. Sometimes i think i am making a huge mistake. Sometimes i think i should still be in MS. Sometimes i think i should have waited to go to Wesley. I think if i had been a little more mature it would have had an even greater impact on my life. I miss it....i miss the people the classed the theology and the music. Whats weird is it does not miss me...LOL
Well i think that is enough for tonight. If anyone is reading this make the best of the moments you have and tell the people you are with and around how much you love them cause when they are gone and all you can do is dream about them it will be to late....and you do not want to regret the time you had like i do...
Patrick | | |
| Life is so hard.....I wish i had someone to talk to.......... | | |
| Have you ever had something or someone mean so much to you it hurt to be away for them? Man i am experiencing this right about now. Wesley College has been a lot of things to me over the past four year. It has been a place where i learned about life, God, family, friends, and heartache, but most of all it has been home. I sit here in my apartment tonight about to begin a Masters degree at JSU...wondering.....wondering if i mean as much to wesley and the people, as it does and they do to me....my heart, life, and mind will never be the same......I miss everything and everyone......
Patrick | | |
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